The last time Clancy Martin tried to kill himself was in his basement with a dog leash. Weaving an intimate and unflinching account of his multiple suicide attempts with the personal experiences of those who have reached out to him over the years, Martin draws an insightful and, at times, comic portrait of the suicidal mind. He investigates the thinking of great writers who have attempted the unmentionable, from David Foster Wallace to Yiyun Li, and asks what philosophy has to say for and against suicide. Both a disarming memoir and a cultural exploration of a hopeless state of mind, How Not to Kill Yourself allows us to grapple honestly with an enduring social taboo and shows that the desire to kill oneself – like other self-destructive impulses – is almost always temporary.
The last time Clancy Martin tried to kill himself was in his basement with a dog leash. Weaving an intimate and unflinching account of his multiple suicide attempts with the personal experiences of those who have reached out to him over the years, Martin draws an insightful and, at times, comic portrait of the suicidal mind. He investigates the thinking of great writers who have attempted the unmentionable, from David Foster Wallace to Yiyun Li, and asks what philosophy has to say for and against suicide. Both a disarming memoir and a cultural exploration of a hopeless state of mind, How Not to Kill Yourself allows us to grapple honestly with an enduring social taboo and shows that the desire to kill oneself – like other self-destructive impulses – is almost always temporary.
An honest, personal, lyrical investigation into the suicidal mind
Clancy Martin’s work has appeared in The New Yorker, The Atlantic, Harper’s, Esquire, Lapham’s Quarterly, The Paris Review and many other prominent publications. A Guggenheim Fellow and Pushcart Prize winner, he has been a finalist for the National Magazine Award and won many fellowships and prizes. His books include the critically acclaimed How To Sell and Love and Lies. He holds joint appointments as Professor of Philosophy at The University of Missouri in Kansas City and at Ashoka University in New Delhi, and as Professor of Business Ethics at The Bloch School of Management at UMKC.
'A rock for people who’ve been troubled by suicidal ideation, or
have someone in their lives who is, and want to understand the
mentality, which can seem utterly mystifying to
the unafflicted. Swirling with anguish and argument, tempered
by practicality, it airs an often taboo topic with the authority of
someone writing what he knows.'
*New York Times*
‘[An] incredibly personal mix of memoir and literary criticism…
this book also feels vitally important because it goes deeply into
a conversation about mental health so few of us ever have…
compelling.’
*Vulture*
‘Insightful… One of Martin’s gifts is his ability to reenter,
decades later, the precise minutiae of his thought patterns… What
about the one reading along with him in the hope of an answer to
this book’s title? He settles for a long and essayistic list of the
things he does to get through the day, patched together with
familiar tactics, obscure thinkers, and quotes from memory and
e-mails with friends. It is idiosyncratic, beautiful.’
*The New Yorker*
‘Zippy, compelling prose… I admire this book, admire what it wants
to do and be.’
*Washington Post*
'How Not to Kill Yourself is a remarkable book – self-flaying
in its honesty, harrowing in its dark narrative turns, clear in its
philosophising, and ultimately consoling in its message of hope.
Treating sometimes dangerous material with
care, Clancy Martin's book is illuminating, riveting, and
– for those of us who are suffering, or know people who are –
potentially life-savingly helpful.'
*Scott Stossel*
'The most honest, complicit, searing, and discomfiting book I’ve
ever read about suicide (and I’ve read quite a few—out of purely
scholarly interest, of course). All great narratives pose a battle
between the force of life and the force of death; How Not To Kill
Yourself does this as brilliantly and powerfully as any book I have
encountered in quite some time. Thrilling and useful.'
*David Shields, author of The Thing About Life Is That One Day
You'll Be Dead*
'In this unusually brave book, Clancy Martin dissects the anatomy
of his own suicide attempts and, deploying other people’s stories
and a wide range of literary sources, gives voice to the large
questions that suicide raises: why some people want to live and
others do not; why some fluctuate between the poles; why he is
grateful to have survived his attempts but still hears the siren
call of self-annihilation. He writes confidently,
philosophically, dramatically, and with great clarity about a life
that has been both wondrous and agonising.'
*Andrew Solomon, author of The Noonday Demon*
'Suicide is impossibly difficult to understand but Clancy Martin
gives first-person insight into why some choose to kill themselves;
importantly, he also gives witness to the kind of hard work it
takes for a suicidal person to opt for life.'
*Kay Redfield Jamison, author of An Unquiet Mind and Fires in the
Dark*
'Clancy Martin reminds us that the most existential questions
around suicide—what drives a person to want to die and what has
kept them alive—are not answered by the act itself but by people
like him, who have long suffered and are authentically seeking what
it means to go on living. He fearlessly and relentlessly asks these
questions of himself and is thankfully here today to offer his many
valuable lessons, both for those who are struggling with thoughts
of suicide and those who work to help them.'
*Dr. John S. Draper, Former Project Director of the National
Suicide Prevention Lifeline network*
'Clancy Martin has written an extraordinary, thoughtful book that
combines his heartbreaking experience with clear-eyed suggestions.
I don’t think I’ve ever read anything quite like it. Required—and,
yes, somehow optimistic reading--for anyone interested in this
enormous mental health problem.'
*D. T. Max, author of Every Love Story is a Ghost Story: The Life
of David Foster Wallace*
‘Martin is empathetic, but never coddling, in urging readers to
consider their actions wisely, particularly the impact
of their choices on others. Dark
urges are understandable, but
actions have consequences… In many ways, it is the
biographical details in How Not to Kill Yourself that
provide the strongest case for sticking around. Despite his
determination to end it all, Martin’s life has been (and is)
exceptional. From high school dropout to world renowned scholar,
his story is one of passionate loves and enviable adventures. It
is, ironically, a tremendous life worth living… Martin’s goal seems
to be to cover as much ground as possible, so that the right
insight finds the person who needs it most. If
you are having urges that concern you, or you want
to be better prepared should they arise, there is no
better guide to thoughts of self-destruction from an insider who
knows it all too well.’
*The Critic*
'How Not to Kill Yourself is a riveting and inspiring read for
anyone who has had to keep company with the chthonic feeling that
the breath of life is a curse.'
*Los Angeles Review of Books*
'A disturbing and transfixing dissection of suicide and its
circumstances.'
*Kirkus Reviews*
‘Transfixing... Funny but never flippant, Martin takes into account
throughout the weight of his subject… This provocative dive into a
difficult subject shouldn’t be missed.’
*Publishers Weekly*
‘It’s not an easy read. But it’s an important one, especially, I
imagine, for anyone with suicidal thoughts. It helped me understand
societal reactions to suicide… Martin’s exploration of the role of
suicide in culture, its evolution and how philosophers approached
the subject was enlightening.’
*Dawn*
'Compassionate throughout, How Not to Kill Yourself will be a
source of support and consolation for many.’
*Irish Times*
‘This brave book… I can't fully imagine what it must have taken for
Martin to be able to write this book, spending hours remembering
and working to describe some of the most difficult feelings and
experiences a human being can have. Hearing one person’s story
of their suicidality can give us courage to (re-)tell our own, and
to hear more stories about suicide. I’m glad when people are
in gentle, non-judgemental conversation about suicide because this
can have a very positive effect on suicidal people; How Not to
Kill Yourself is part of this conversation on suicide which I
hope others will join.’
*Neurodiversity at Oxford*
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